Scared to Live?

Have you ever been scared to live? Even though with realization that we live to die. It's crazy I am usually the person who doesn't really care when it come to tragic deaths in the media. (Sorrrrrrryyyyyyyyy I filter out things that can inflect my mood in anyway.) But with the recent deaths of my sister Sandra Bland and now today me hearing about Sam Dubose my entire perspective on life has changed. My people are being KILT KILLED by the handful. Our leaders who fought for equality in the country who died who us to be free, I'm starting to feel like all that progress is regressing to nothing. EVERYDAY another BLACK individual is killed and the one who is now dead is always at fought! I am somewhat fuck that, I am scared to be a African American male in today's society. YEARS later we still have no control over our own fate. I'm just so sick of hearing about the deaths of my brothers and sisters that I am speechless. I just........... OK OK let's get off that I had to get that off my heart. Now on to what I really created my blog for. Which IS alllll TEA and no SHADE. LoL I joke but whats going on in the gay community, "oh nothing much he slept with him, him and that one. He sucked his dick blah, blah blah. Your boyfriend still on jackd but not cheating OKAYYYYYYYYYYY. Gays are stupid as fuck. I am in that category as well so I am speaking on myself as well. When will we learn that it is never okay to settle! He's cute?, He has a nice body?, He has the best smile, and he lays _______ But where he work........ no where you can do better. If I am offending you, like I have mentioned before this blog is uncensored soooooo you read what YOU read. Self-worth hmmmmmmm how much are you worth? I honestly do not know myself worth because I keep falling for the wrong individuals. "Let love come to you" , but how will "it" know where I am hiding (LOL). You can be the most attractive person in the world but if your heart and intentions aren't right you're ugly. What you want may not be good for me, but good for someone else do let it go! Life throws curve balls, and you will never hit that ball unless you have the right swing. It takes practice, you get a few strike-outs, but do not give up your home run is coming! Thanks for read I love you guys.
-MarqTwain