Rewind, play, fast forward

Hello hello. This is my first post of 2015 halfway through the year😅. That's not okay but I'm back uhmmmm where to start.... New connections formed, lost, formed again and LOST again WHAT IS LIFE! As she said "I done, I ain't never going back" you aren't really, truly done until you can go an entire day without thinking about the person "that hurt you! The fact that this person is still in your mind means that you care a lot about there well being so when that texts come "Hey, how are you doing" "How have you been" or or or "I'm sorry give me another chance" you jump back like a magnet of a refrigerator. Shows that you are not over it YOU ARE NOT done, but we put on that "front" to please other people who didn't like YOUR situation!! You know how people say "the girl always wants the bad guy" stereotype because shit I am often attracted to the bad guy as well. It's crazy how you can have someone who gives you anything you want, does whatever you want them to do for you and then some(he will be bob).... But still something about that person, that situation draws you away to the person who doesn't do half that other person does for you(Joe). Then when you are alone with no one you think of bob and how if you never messed up how happy you would be together. You contemplate about going back to him. NO NO NO that is never a good thing., whatever bob did (which is everything  good lol)  that drew you away the first time is still there. WOW I am really getting into this 😂😂😂😂. But hey it's life! Lol

Any wayy lol dating is hard af! You find somebody you think you like,, chit chat for a little bit then next minute it's over TF what is that about. I know I might sounds a little different than the most but I'm 20 and I actually want a relationship. I'm not one of those people who want to live there 20s single and partying no,, I want somebody who in stable and consistent. That guy I'd spend Christmas with me and parents and whatnot lmaoooo that asking for a lot huh?