LIFEEEEEEE!

As you, well most of you know that my motto is “it gets better” right now I am not even sure of that. When i tell you i had a whole life crisis today. Like I wanted to (in the words of Dr. H20man) roll on the ground kicking and screaming. But what will that solve. My entire day I have been thinking about my life and how I may have really went to wrong way this time. As I drink my fifth, sixth? Idk what number beer I’m still not okay with what I am doing. I love love Love research but my life dream was always to become a veterinarian. This weekend I went to a veterinarian conference and as i sit in this room with all these vets of different races, and disciplines within veterinariay medicine I’m like yooooooo I should be here. It actually brought me to tears. I’m upset that I am struggling to get through statistics, while I could be struggling to get through veterinary medicine. What’s the difference? I know it might come off bad but I would rather.... excuse me RATHER struggle through something i want to do for the rest of with my life than on stupid stats. It’s depression like in undergrad I feel in love with research, but that is my second love. I was playing around with the idea of veterinarian pathology, because hey I love research and i want to be a both. So let’s do it boom veterinarian pathologist. But I’m here at A&T STILL. Don’t get me wrong I love A&T my alma matter I have had great no no no AMAZING times here but I think I am ready to go! But how, this masters has me for another two years. On the bright side most vets need a graduate degree to get the best jobs soooo i will have one when i get my DVM but damn I wish i got the DVM first. I will become a Vet no matter what. As i look into school, I am not taking organic chemistry II over so State might be out the picture. I am looking into Kansas state, or Ohio, or Colorado state. Something i though about to also was what would my personal statement be? Me being gay? Would that be appropriate... idk idk idk,, geeez Louise help me please. Everyone around me knows how bad I want this vet degree. When i has the chance to apply i didn’t. So I’m here. I just wanna be great. But you know what.... it DOES get better. I WILL be great. And I love you guysssssss. =) thanks for reading,, leave me comments, feedback suggestions...