LOVE

Hey you guys I'm back. What's up!! It's my senior year of college! To think my first blog post was in  2013 geeezzzz. What have I been doing?, living eating, talking shit same ol same ol. It's getting real! Still at Petsmart, and got a new job being a research assitant ayyyye! Got new roommates not to sure how I feel about them but whatever. They not paying my rent soooo...Uhmm learning, living, it gets better. Summer school sucked but hey it paid off. The summer wasn't the best but I'm alive. My last blog spoke very "Downly" on my last relationship. I said a lot of bull shit that when I read it, it hurts my feelings.  My past blogs may have been the stupidest thoughts I ever had. When you find someone you love, you LOVE that person regardless of what is going on. I gave up on mine thought it was the right thing to do at the moment. but thinking now that we are back together, that was the dumbest decision ever. That quote "you don't miss something until it's gone"  and "If you let something go and it comes back it means so much more" I believe this 100%. The months apart were terrible and true love always comes back. You probably thinking I'm just writing a new blog because I was "doing some reading" but no, as other bloggers may relate we always have blogs that we start and need the right time to finish and publish them. You saying that just gave me the motivation to finish it lol. This blog has been sitting in the drafts waiting for me to complete it. When I say I'm in LOVE, I mean LOVEEEE I mean it. I have never in my entire life loved somebody as much as I love his guy. There's is nothing that I wouldn't do for him. If he wanted to star, I'll bring him the biggest and brightest (the sun lol). I hate that i allowed 2 1/2 -3 months go by with being with him. If I seem obsessed well I am. Love is..... love. I can't explain it. I wish could but when you fall you know it. I missed every inch of that man lol.! If I could I'd get the biggest mega phone and declare our love to the world. When I'm down, you've always been there, and I appreciate every thing you have done for me. The time we spend I cherish it every minute wish there was more time sometimes to just hold you. When we kiss I wish it was everlasting. I'd spend an eternity having a conversation with your just so I can hear your voice. When I haven't spoke to you within a hour I worry lol. I wish we could talk all day but nothin would get done. *checks time* we are good. I also love that mom is allowing me to be apart of her also. That means the world to me!! I feel like.. UGHHHH IDK,, no words could ever describe how much I am in love. Yes, I am young but I know with everything inside of me he is the guy for me, and the fact I was given another chance to spend my life with the man of my dreams is something I'd never  ever ever ever ever ever ever give up on again. Babe I promise my love for you is real and has always been. Who am I talking about? Uhmmm mind yo damn business. Things aren't always going to be perfect but we can works those kinks out together. I meannnnnnn well. "Okay, okay."  I can't read those blogs either without feeling so bad, that why we never have to. =). Tell me when I am wrong or if your upset, and I will tell you. I have my insecurities and blah blah blah that we all have but I believe in us. It's been a journey that will end happily. What else can I say idk,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, the day we decided to try this again was the best day ever. Felt like my life was back in motion lol. I never want to be without again. Uhmmmmmmmmmmm I love you loser. This blog has been more like a letter to him lol. But whatever. Y'all get the point! Haha. I'll be chatting with you guys soon.